Yesterday I awoke in a fairly good mood. I actually had energy and made it to work. That in itself was an accomplishment. Then little by little the negativity began to crowd my mind, so I proceeded to turn on the radio to play my favorite song. It helped enough. Then I went to pick my DH up from work and from the moment he got in all he could do is nit pick and tell me I was wrong for this and that....then he says he is angry because he only wants more time with his wife, I feel we do enough together, I'm not very adventurous but we spend time at home together and actually we go EVERYWHERE together, I don't understand what else he wants
Last night I had a small episode OVER FREAKING ENGAGMENT rings and proposals! My DH never proposed to me and it is still a sore subject, He had once told me he would propose to the right women at the right time. Guess I wasn't the one. So here we are over three years fighting out the same. After this "discussion" I fell apart crying hysterically, clinging to my mother, asking her to take the pain away, telling her I didn't want to live this way. AND no it isn't just about the ring, its about the meaning behind it, all of the hardships, accomplishments, milestones, That is what it means to me.
After that I took my meds and went into a deep slumber, until now.
Last night I had a small episode OVER FREAKING ENGAGMENT rings and proposals! My DH never proposed to me and it is still a sore subject, He had once told me he would propose to the right women at the right time. Guess I wasn't the one. So here we are over three years fighting out the same. After this "discussion" I fell apart crying hysterically, clinging to my mother, asking her to take the pain away, telling her I didn't want to live this way. AND no it isn't just about the ring, its about the meaning behind it, all of the hardships, accomplishments, milestones, That is what it means to me.
After that I took my meds and went into a deep slumber, until now.